On a more optimistic note

Guess what people?!?!

On a happier mood/note than the previous post (I am still very sick BTW) I am glad to say that I am going to the seaside!! Damn right babies! This weekend will be a great (not)relaxing weekend! I will spend it entirely watching the very romantic sights and dancing as much as possible and of course drinking with some of my work colleagues/friends. How cool can that be?!

As a matter of fact I am going to Delta (not quite the picture that everyone has about the seaside) but that does not matter so much and actually it should be even better. Why? Because in any other seaside resort from our glorious country you see cheap people trying to “live large”, which they don’t really cause they spend all their money – for which they starved for the previous 4 months – there in 2 days and go back home and starve yet again. I have to admit those guys are very strong, I don’t think I could do so

Well, I am looking forward to it, my first time in Danube Delta!! I so intend to live up to the “delta dream”

Have a good one!

Nu se poate

Okay!! That’s it! Stau si eu 2 zile cu maica-mea si ma pricopsesc cu o raceala de toata frumusetea! Asa nu mai merge ! De acum incolo limited access astfel:

1. Petrecem maxim 5 minute pe zi impreuna;

2. Fara pupici, imbratisari si chestii d-astea

3. limitam contactul la minim, cel putin pana cand reusesc sa nu mai racesc asa usor!

Hai pa!

Such a lovely day!

Azi e o zi minunata! De ce? nici eu nu stiu dar azi ma simt excelent!

Poate pentru ca e soare afara, poate pentru ca e primavara si peste tot sunt flori, poate pentru ca in momentul asta ascult muzica super faina sau poate doar asa, pentru ca am eu chef (muhahahah)!

guess the band and song

Ghici ghicitoare ce-i:

1. Do you want to go to the seaside?I’m not trying to say that everybody wants to go; I fell in love at the seaside; I handled my charm with time and slight of hand; But I’m just trying to love you; In any kind of way; But I find it hard to love you girl… si asa mai departe

2. I’m so tired; Of falling in love; Finding it easier to fall out; Can’t deny it; I feel it inside cupids’ fire; I can’t hide…

3. Once there was this kid who; Got into an accident and couldn’t come to schoom; But when he finally came back; His hair had turned from black into bright white..

4. I lie, I wait; I stop, I hesitate; I am, I breathe; I meant, I think of me; Is it any wonder I can’t sleep; All I have is all you gave to mel Is it any wonder I found peache through you?; Turn to the gates of heaven….

5. It’s only been a week; The rush of being home in rapid fading. Prevailing to recall; What I was missing, all that time in England [...] And everywhere I go; There’s always something to remind me; Of another place and time…

6. Situación de alarma. América Latina muere;El ejército zapatista va cogiendo poder.;Todos los indigenas son presa del fascismo.;Con un pañuelo van cubriendo su tez.;Terrorista, xenófobo, racista.

7. Sitiing here wishing on a cement floor; Just wishing that I had something you wore; I put it on when I go lonely; Will you take off your dress and send it to me?

Well.. tot ce a mai ramas acum e sa ghiciti 

Do you know?

• Do you know me?
• Do you know who I am? Who I want to be? Who I wanted to be as a child and who I have become?
• Do you know that I miss… I miss all that is passed and will never come back?
• Do you know that sometimes I feel like suffocating? Do you know why? Do you want to know?
• Do you know I care? Do you know what/who I care for?
• Do you know people lie everyday? Do you lie? Would you lie to me and why?
• Do you know that I can be happy and sad, and sad and happy all over again?
• Do you want to know? Do you want to know me, leaving aside all the superficial and shallow appearences that I sometimes show only to seem more brave or “hip”?

Do you know??

Sad day for democracy!!In memoriam…

I hate today! I hate it and hate it and hate it!!

Why I hate it?? because today I found out that I have no say in my bosses’ decisions. Say for instance that you like your job, that you like your colleagues (at least some of them) but you LOVE you office, your desk, the view and the people that surround your desk… Why would anyone try and take that away from me? And even more, do it without consulting me before??? I simply don’t get it and most likely don’t want to get it!

The policy of the company I work for is “not destroying the creative flow”, well they just did that!! I do not want to sit next to an annoying person (I am enough of that, two sitting one next to each other would mean death for both of us and people around), I don’t want to stand the stench of some people and honestly don’t need to receive any reasons for arguements (’cause most likely that’s what’s gonna happen)…

Sad, sad day…

In Memoriam

What I could do on the 3rd of April at 5 am

Yes… It is 5 am and I am awake… it is 5 am and I am at work… there are so many things that I could do now, right now, such as:

- sleep like a baby

- dream beatiful dreams

- have a horrifying nighmare and wake up at exactly 5 am with a thin layer of sweat on my forehead

- drink a beer in a pub with some friend of mine

- have a conversation with that friend besides drinking the beer

- have a “wild” 5 am

- cuddle up after the “wild” 5 am

- eat the pizza I have in the fridge

- put it in the oven first

- wake up mom and hug her

- tell her I love her too..

- call my sis and chat a bit

- or maybe more than a bit….

- call a special someone (I wonder who might that be the insecurity is killing me ) wake him up and say “I miss you…”

- send an e-mail to my german friend and tell him I miss Germany and him(I wonder if he’d say the same)

-  not write on the blog

- at least not at 5 am (Gosh!!)

- look at the clock and realize that it’s almost 5:30 am already

- continue working… Jesus!! Hell no!!

- get up and leave (Dee wants me to do that now, should I?)

- dream some more

- have another nighmare

- and eat the pizza I keep trying to eat for 2 days (it is frozen don’t worry ’bout it)

- miss Germany again…

- want to sleep

- want to go

- can’t go

- the computer is fascinating me

- fuck it!

- bye

- no

- yes

- what the fuck is wrong with me???????????????????????????

(NOT) understanding my Likes/Dislikes in relationships

Likes:

1. Receiving flowers. Lots and lots of cute smelly colorfull flowers!!

2. When I realize that I had more things in common with him than I originally thought

3. When he suprises me in a new, original, spontaneous way

4. Spending a cozy day/night in my “sweethearts” arms

5. Enjoying a bottle of wine and chatting around without any specific topic on the table

6. Going out and actually having fun together

7. The comfort and familiarity you achieve after a while

8. Feeling happy to see each other after being separated for a while (even a short while)

9. First dates are always great and sweet

10. Watching a sunset/rise and romantic, girly shit like that!

 Dislikes

1. Having to stand his presence even if I want to be alone in that moment (and maybe forever and ever)

2. Him not calling when I’d like to hear from him

3. When we don’t understand each other and have to resort to other methods (such as yelling, cursing and of course breaking up)

4. When I don’t receive flowers. And I don’t mean for special ocasions only but for no reason at all, just like that, out of the blue

5.  Me being so insecure whenever I start a relationship

6. Him getting insecure because I am so extrovert

7. Being scared to commit and receiving the same feedback from him

8. Not receiving any feedback what-so-ever

9. Thinking too much when it comes to breaking-up and thinking too little when it comes to hooking-up

10. Getting so sad, insecure, lacking in confidence and so stupid for doing and feeling all these

Gata! Pa!