Vrei sa fim prietene?

Actori principali: Eu si O Doamna la vreo 40 de ani.

Eu pe o bancuta la Modarom. Ea se apropie usor de mine.

Ea: Ai cumva un foc?

Eu: Da (evident aveam o tigara aprinsa)

Ea: Merci

Eu: Cu placere

Se aseaza langa mine si nu spune nimic pentru cateva minute pana cand se intoarce catre mine si spune:

- Vrei sa fim prietene? (zambeste)

- Ummm… Am putea fi cunostinte…

Se intoarce iar si se gandeste. Mai stam cateva minute in liniste iar apoi spune:

- Cum imi fac rost de un baiat dragut? (zambeste iar)

- Umm.. nu stiu?!?

- Hmmm..

- Eu trebuie sa plec.

- Ne mai vedem nu? Acum suntem prietene!

 

<What the heck?!?>

Gugu gaga

Gugu gaga si atat

“Bine dispunerea”

Azi am fost cam prost dispusa. Sunt inca.

Vorbeam cu cineva. Ma intreaba ce am (nu paream in apele mele probabil), spun ca nu e una din zilele cele mai bune. Spune “tu mereu esti suparata, trista, singura”. No shit?!? Mereu?? Ce ciudat, aveam impresia ca nu e asa deloc. Ce vad oamenii la mine? Eu care speram ca vad doar sila, scarba de a o lua de la capat a doua a zi. Same ol’ shit.

Ce mi se pare mai ciudat este ca rad mereu, zambesc mereu, unde dracu vad ei tristete si toate cele. Nu pot fi chiar atat de transparenta! Sau?

Ma bucura ca sunt altii mai bine dispusi in fiecare zi, ce sa spun!

Mistake and consolation. The Olive branch – I hand it to you..

Mistake = An error or fault resulting from defective judgment, deficient knowledge, or carelessness.

“Why is it that an extended olive branch often turns to a clinched fist of hatred?”

I am wondering what makes people make mistakes? Lack of wisdom (The ability to discern or judge what is true, right, or lasting)? Lack of intelligence (The capacity to acquire and apply knowledge)? Lack of brain, personality, courage?

Ok, maybe I exagerated a bit with courage, however I think that you need a lot of it not to make the same mistake again, and again, and again. Yes, you need to be able to say “Stop it! Leave me the freck alone, don’t buzz me anymore” or at least “don’t hurt me anymore!”  Why is it so hard to do that? Why oh why??

Why is it so hard for people to notice when they’re hurting another human? Or do they know and like it?! That can’t possibly be true… people who hurt others for sports, entertainment… disgusting!! 

I want to believe that humans (or at least a certain percentage) care for what other people feel and don’t just use them for their pleasure, for just a few moments and then simply vanish, without any word of consolation. But, then again, if they were to say something, what would they? Would they say a simple “Sorry”? Would that suffice? Would they get down on their knees and beg forgiveness? Would they write an email or a letter and  explain themselves? Send an sms or call? What would be the easiest way to put your mind at ease?

Maybe most people, you, are afraid that the apologies would be rejected or would reach a deaf ear. Don’t they know better than that? Don’t they,you, know that an olive branch is more than a symbol of peace? It also has to be the gesture, the feeling, the need and, especially, desire to be forgiven and forgive? You must not forget because you won’t be able to learn from you mistakes, all you need to do and want is to forgive.

I think I know. So, yes, I forgive you.

All this might sound a bit corny  but it’s not that, it’s the simple truth. We should learn to accept that people have flaws just as I have flaws, just as you have them too. Given the fact that we have flaws shouldn’t we be able to understand other people’s flaws and sort of accept them?

With the risk of repeating myself:

Yes, I forgive you.